I
return from the bathroom to find my gorgeous husband sprawled bare-ass naked on
our couch. The firelight flickers across his golden skin that’s still damp from
our recent lovemaking. Lovemaking. That
word used to be so foreign to me, but now rolls right off my tongue.
I drop to my knees beside the couch
and lean over Adam’s sleeping body. I place tender kisses along the back of his
neck until I can feel his body begin to stir. I climb onto the couch and lay on
top of him, pressing my chest against his back. I kiss a path from shoulder
blade to shoulder blade and then back up his neck until I reach his ear. I nip
his earlobe just how he likes then give it a gentle tug.
“Mmmm.” He lifts his head slightly
and I kiss across his cheek until I reach his luscious mouth. I can’t kiss him
as deeply as I’d like in this position, so I have to settle for tender pecks on
his lips, which isn’t enough for my greedy man.
“More.”
I push up from his body and Adam rolls
to his side, allowing me to drop down beside him. I cup his face in my hands
and kiss him with every ounce of love I have in my body. I try to show him how
much he means to me, because words still often fail me, even after nearly two
years together.
“I
know,” he whispers against my lips after we break apart. “I love you,
too.” I see the truth in his
heavy-lidded, green eyes before his eyelashes flutter and his eyes begin to
close.
“Don’t fall asleep,baby. I have one
more gift for you.” His eyes snap back open.
“Sebastian, you’ve already given me
too much…”
“This
will be your favorite present. I
promise.” With a sudden burst of
energy, I climb over Adam and walk to the beautifully decorated tree in the
corner of the living room. I drop down on my hands and knees and reach for the
item I hid under the tree skirt.
“What
a beautiful view, Adam says.” I wiggle
my ass for him.
I stand up and hide the gift behind
my back as I make my way back to the couch.
Adam sits up when I return. The expression in his eyes changes from
joking to serious when he sees the look in my eyes. This is a monumental moment
for both of us and he senses it. “Close
your eyes and hold out your hands, baby.”
Adam closes his eyes and I lay his gift in his hand. My heart is thumping erratically in my
chest. “You can open them now.”
Adam slowly opens his eyes and keeps
his eyes locked on mine for several seconds before finally looking down to see
what’s in his hands. “Sebastian.” A soft sob slips through his lips. He runs
his index finger over the lettering on the small embroidered Christmas stocking
I laid in his hands. “Baby’s first Christmas,” he says tearfully. He finally looks up at me and I see happy
tears running down his face. “Are you
sure you’re ready?”
“Positive. I can’t wait to start this next chapter in
our life together,” I assure him. “Look
inside the stocking.”
Adam reaches inside and pulls out
the tiniest piece of baby clothing I’ve ever seen. He holds it up in front of
his face and laughs happily when he reads the words printed on the onsie. “Two dads are better than one,” he says. “This is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen and
I love it.”
I
wipe Adam’s joyful tears off his beautiful face. “I’m sorry that I’ve been so
selfish about having a baby. I wasn’t ready to share your love and attention
with anyone else, and I was afraid that I would turn out to be an awful father. I’m still terrified, but I know you’ll help
me.”
Adam lays his gifts aside and climbs
onto my lap. He places his hand beneath my chin and lifts my face until I look
him in the eye. “You are going to be an
amazing father, Sebastian. You’ll be
able to teach our children things I never could, because I’ve never known a bad
day in my life. I am in awe of you every single day and that will only intensify
when I see you interact with our son or daughter.”
I lean forward until our foreheads
touch. “No one has ever believed in me like you do. I thank God for you every
day. I strive to be a better person
because of the faith and love you’ve given me. You make me see the world in a
new light and want things I never imagined. This world needs more little Adams
running around showing people a path out the darkness and into the light.”
Adam kisses me tenderly and I can
feel him smile against my lips. “You’ve turned into quite the romantic,” he
teases me. “I like it.”
We talk for at least an hour making baby
plans while we share a bottle of wine. I can see that he’s getting sleepy
again, so I lay us back down on the couch and cover us with a warm blanket. Holding
my beloved husband in my arms while he drifts to sleep in front of a crackling
fire has become my favorite Christmas Eve tradition. Although, next year I suspect things will be
drastically different if everything goes according to plan.
A baby. We’re going to have a baby.